I Still Know The Way Out

[Verse 1 ] I still map the exits when we fight Even when the fight is small I still keep one bag half-packed In the back of the hall closet You smile across the kitchen table I smile right back like I’m fine But my left foot’s already pointed Toward the door, every single time [Pre-Chorus] The mind says we chose this The body still keeps score It still knows every back road It still remembers the war [Chorus] I still know the way out I still know it by heart Even with the lights on Even with your hand in mine I still know the way out Better than I know what safe is And that’s the part that breaks me Every single time [Verse 2 ] Sometimes when you say forever I hear the old silence underneath And for half a second I’m already gone Standing in the rain on the street I hate that it still feels safer To leave before the leaving starts To disappear before the kindness Gets close enough to mark my heart [Pre-Chorus] We left the lights on We chose to stay But the map is still inside me And it wakes up when the room goes quiet [Chorus] I still know the way out I still know it by heart Even with the lights on Even with your hand in mine I still know the way out Better than I know what safe is And that’s the part that breaks me Every single time [Bridge] I thought love would kill the exit signs Thought staying long enough would make them fade But some part of me still trusts the leaving More than anything that asks me to be saved No miracle No clean erase Just me in the same house Trying not to confuse escape with grace [Final Chorus] I still know the way out I still know it by heart But tonight I’m not taking it Tonight I’m staying where you are I still know the way out Better than I know what safe is And that’s the part that kills me That’s the part that kills me [Outro] I still know I still know But I’m still here I’m still here