Bouncing Off The Ceiling

[Intro] Sent another one up tonight Watched it hit the plaster Come back in pieces [Verse 1] I used to talk to the ceiling like it owed me something Like if I stayed up late enough, hurt enough, meant it enough Something would crack A light A voice A clean little answer in a language I could trust But all I got was the hum of the house The fridge in the kitchen A dog barking three streets over My own breath sounding borrowed in the dark [Verse 2] I took every silence personal Every pause like a punishment Every closed door like proof That I was either too much Or not enough in the right direction So I threw words upward Little paper prayers on fire And watched them hit white paint And drift back down as ash [Pre-Chorus ] And maybe That was the answer Not the one I wanted But the one that stayed [Chorus] Bouncing off the ceiling Back into my chest Every plea came down a little changed A little less obsessed Bouncing off the ceiling Till I learned to hear Not every unanswered thing is loss Not every silence disappears [Verse 3] There were names I begged for Doors I nearly broke my hands against Lives I thought I wanted so badly I mistook the ache for destiny I said, “Why not me?” I said, “What now?” I said, “Are you there or is this just drywall and doubt?” And years later I look at the wreckage I almost called home And I swear some mercies only make sense in reverse [Pre-Chorus ] Maybe the no Was a guardrail Maybe the wait Was a kind hand Maybe the room was not empty Maybe it was listening Differently than I planned [Chorus] Bouncing off the ceiling Back into my chest Every plea came down a little changed A little less obsessed Bouncing off the ceiling Till I learned to hear Some things don’t come back answered They come back leaving you here [Bridge] Still here Still asking Still sometimes angry in the quiet Still mistaking delay for distance Still learning that not every blessing arrives like a rescue Some of them arrive like restraint Like redirection Like a wall that didn’t move Because you weren’t supposed to go through it [Final Chorus] Bouncing off the ceiling Back into my bones Not every silence means abandoned Not every wait means alone Bouncing off the ceiling Now I understand Some prayers are answered sideways By a wiser hand [Outro] Sent another one up tonight Watched it hit the plaster Come back softer