Holy Water, Gasoline

[Intro] I was never one thing I was never clean [Verse 1] Warm hands, cold blood Smile cut thin as a switchblade moon I could bless a room and burn it down All in the same breath if I wanted to Came up learning love could turn on a dime Mercy in the morning, wreckage by night So I built my heart like a split-screen house One side altar, one side fire [Pre-Chorus] I used to think that made me dangerous Used to think that made me wrong Now I think it just means I’ve been carrying too much too long [Chorus] Holy water, gasoline Mercy and a wrecking machine Holy water, gasoline Both of them alive in me I’m not split I’m not strange Just a lit match in the summer rain Holy water, gasoline [Verse 2] I know how to hold, I know how to hit How to kneel down soft, how to vanish quick How to mean every word and still pull away How to ache for peace and still feed the blaze There’s a chapel voice living under my ribs There’s a back-alley spark in the bite of my grin And I spent years trying to bleach one out Like the soul gets saved by cutting it in half [Pre-Chorus] But the older I get, the less I trust Any truth that comes that clean Maybe grace is not a pure white room Maybe grace knows exactly what I mean [Chorus] Holy water, gasoline Mercy and a wrecking machine Holy water, gasoline Both of them alive in me I’m not split I’m not strange Just a lit match in the summer rain Holy water, gasoline [Bridge] I got tenderness And I got teeth I got prayers And I got heat I got a long memory And a short fuse too But I am done pretending Only one of them is true [Final Chorus] Holy water, gasoline Halo smoke and a broken wing Holy water, gasoline I know what made this heart of me I’m not split I’m not wrong I’ve just been carrying both along Holy water, gasoline [Outro] I was never one thing I was never clean Holy water Gasoline